When I was young, because of the circumstance, I did not live with my mother from the time when I was 5, through the age of 11. During that time, I did not think much about the fact that we were not together. When I turned 12, I lived with my mother once again. Because of my age at that time, I wasn’t very loving to my mother and would often defy her. This situation only increased as I advanced in my teenage years. I would often fight with my mother, and I always thought I knew more than her.
It wasn’t until I reached my early adulthood that I realized what I had done to my mother. I reflected a lot on the relationship that I had with my mother. I tried to grapple at all the possible memories of her and the experiences we shared together before the age of 5. I could only remember a few, but I started to cherish those memories and I still think of them even to this day.
As I grew older, I also realized that I did not treat my mother as valuable and I did not treasure her love. Although I defied her and even did things my own way, my mother always cherished me. No matter how harsh or rebellious I was, she always showed me attention and love, and for sure never pointed out my mistakes. Of all people, she covered my ugly traits the most and offered me a pure and unconditional love.
The Bible says, “For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse” (Ro 1:20). I understand that the relationship with my physical mother is a pattern of the spiritual relationship with my Spiritual Mother. I too was separated from Heavenly Mother and came to this earth. I didn’t realize the significance of being together with Heavenly Mother and just carried out my life. Now that I have reunited with Heavenly Mother, I too try to grapple at the memories of Heaven and being with Her. I cherish the times that I can think of Her, and even see Her in the flesh and hear Her voice.
I know that despite the times I defied Her and rebelled against Her, She still cherished me so much. I truly thank Heavenly Mother, because the unconditional love I experienced with my physical mother was an opportunity to understand Heavenly Mother’s unconditional love. I hope that I can continue to realize the great sacrifice and pure love of Heavenly Mother, for without doubt, Her love is the greatest love ever known and Her love is the true love that deserves to be valued and treasured.