A child accidentally swallowed a battery that is smaller than a coin. While the Church members were inducing the child to vomit so that the battery would come out, his mother could not help but just sit down and lose all her energy, silently shedding tears. After he was induced to vomit, her mother was still very worried about him and didn’t know what to do. But the child just didn’t seem to care at all about his worried mom; he just ran all around, playing and jumping without even feeling sorry to his mom as if nothing bad had happened to him.
Before my sleep, my husband said to me, ‘‘How come that child did not care at all about his worried mom? How come he was acting as if everything was ok? I really wanted to spank him.” At that moment, I was reminded of Heavenly Mother who must have been very worried and sad about Her children who ignored the voice of God and rather followed their sinful desire. So I told my husband to think about how we acted in Heaven towards Heavenly Father and Mother, and he silently nodded his head.
The following day was the Feast of Trumpets when we should blow the trumpet of repentance loud. I realized that I am a grievous sinner who fought against Father and Mother and disgraced Th em in Heaven. When I realized it, I could not control my tears. Even on this earth, I was a prodigal and selfish daughter who gave sorrows and worries to Heavenly Mother. It lingered on in my mind constantly that I was no different from the child who never cared about his mother’s pain and sorrow.
Even if I make an apology to God and give all that I have, it can never be compared with the great sacrifice of God. The pain and suffering I caused Heavenly Mother can never be removed, and as a result, I do not even deserve to be forgiven. However, God is the most pleased with the repentance of sinners, because His only hope and happiness is that we repent of our sins and receive the blessing of forgiveness of sins.
I truly give eternal thanks to Heavenly Father and Mother for allowing me to keep the precious feasts through which I can receive the blessing of forgiveness of sins and for giving me realizations. Whenever I think about how much Heavenly Mother suffers because of my selfish ambition and arrogance, I will surely remind myself of who I am in essence. To lessen the burden that Heavenly Mother is carrying because of me, I will surely and fully devote the remaining days of my life on earth to doing the gospel mission so that the eternal rest that is waiting for Her in Her Kingdom will come very soon.