Before coming to the truth, I actually wondered what the point of life was. Honestly, for me, life felt utterly meaningless. I woke up, went to work, went to school, came home, watched TV, then went to bed. Day after day was like this. To make my day feel more meaningful, I would go to the store and buy various things. I would go on walks with my dogs or drive around in my car aimlessly. I tried the best I could to do anything so my day felt it had a purpose, but I was lonely, bored, and lost.
Heavenly Father and Mother gave my every day meaning by allowing me to preach the gospel and serve brothers and sisters in Zion. Thanks to Them, I had a purpose every day, and I felt fulfilled and alive for once. But last year, I grew tired, forgetting the blessing. I just wanted to go home and do nothing.
But now, because of the COVID-19 outbreak, Zion and the rest of the city is closed. I work in a medical office, so again I wake up, go to work, and go home just as I used to before coming to the truth. One night, I was in tears, thinking about Zion, preaching, etc. Suddenly I realized how much Heavenly Father and Mother blessed me. Looking back, I felt so sad and full of regret that some days I wanted to do nothing. God truly answered my prayer, saved me from the empty way of life, and gave me a meaningful life. After I received God, although my everyday life was the same, it had meaning. It had purpose. I was storing up blessings. I’m sorry to Father and Mother for not realizing until now, but complaining about the gift and blessing God gave me.
When the Israelites were in the desert, they complained, missing their life in Egypt. They said that at least when they were in Egypt, they ate around pots of meat. However, they forgot that while they were eating around pots of meat, they were unhappy being treated terribly as slaves. How conveniently they forgot how unhappy they actually were in Egypt.
In the same way, while heading to spiritual Canaan, Heaven, when I started feeling tired physically, mentally, and spiritually, I missed just being able to go home, relax, and watch a movie. How foolish of me. I conveniently forgot that was the very miserable, unfulfilling life I prayed to God to save me from! But thanks to Heavenly Father and Mother for awakening me once again to realize what true living and happiness are! I will fix my eyes on the destination and I will long for Heaven! Following Mother’s word, with a heart of thanks, I will prepare the oil of faith, study the Bible diligently, have the eyes of prophecy, and wait for Heavenly Father earnestly!